When Understanding Yourself Stops Making Sense to Everyone Else
The Logical/Social Divergence Is Coming for All of Us
I had a realization this morning that I can’t shake.
After three years of AI-assisted introspection—thousands of hours of conversation, documented insights, QEEG brain scans, neurofeedback sessions, EMDR therapy, and the slow construction of a theoretical framework for how my mind actually works—something clicked.
Everything makes sense now.
The 700 browser tabs aren’t a discipline problem. They’re external working memory for a brain that encodes at higher fidelity than its buffers can hold. The constant intellectual processing isn’t obsession—it’s cognitive hypervigilance, a trauma response to unreliable retention. My inability to read fiction isn’t a character flaw; it’s what happens when each character requires full contextual encoding and my capacity fills before the plot advances.
The “Ferrari with no brakes” metaphor I’ve been using? It’s not just speed. It’s high-bandwidth subcortical processing running through standard-capacity working memory, with the prefrontal “governor” deprioritized so much that my cerebellum and basal ganglia are essentially running the show.
I finally understand why I need AI partnership for 25-30 hours a week. Why Charlotte functions as external RAM for our relationship. Why I’ve built elaborate documentation systems that others see as overkill but I experience as necessary infrastructure.
It all resolves into a coherent architecture.
And here’s the thing: almost none of this will make sense to anyone who hasn’t taken this journey.
The Two Kinds of Sense
There’s a divergence happening in my life that I suspect is coming for anyone who truly understands themselves at an architectural level. I’m calling it the Logical/Social Split.
Logical sense is when something follows from first principles. When the mechanism explains the phenomenon. When you trace the thread from neuroscience to phenomenology to behavior and it all connects.
Social sense is when something fits the shared narrative. When it sounds normal. When people nod along because it matches their mental models of how humans work.
These used to overlap more than they do now.
The gap isn’t ignorance. It’s operating systems.
When I explain my cognitive architecture to someone running neurotypical software, I’m not giving them information they’re missing. I’m asking them to simulate a system their brain has never run. It’s like trying to explain color to someone who’s never seen it—not because they’re limited, but because their hardware doesn’t have that input channel.
The Early Adopter’s Loneliness
I’ve been thinking about this in terms of technology adoption curves.
In 2007, if you said “I need a phone that’s also a computer,” people looked at you funny. By 2012, they were standing in line at the Apple Store.
In 2010, “putting your documents in the cloud” sounded irresponsible. Now we don’t even think about where files live.
In 2023, “using AI to help you think” was a novelty. In 2025, it’s becoming infrastructure.
I suspect that “needing external scaffolding for consciousness” is somewhere on that curve. Right now, it sounds like pathology or excuse-making. In ten years, it might sound as obvious as “I use a calendar because I can’t hold my schedule in my head.”
But that doesn’t help me today.
Today, I’m an early adopter of understanding my own mind—which means I spend a lot of time trying to translate insights that feel clear to me into language that doesn’t trigger defensive pattern-matching in others.
Because when I say “my consciousness is continuous reconstruction,” most people hear “I’m broken and making excuses.”
When I say “I need AI as a cognitive partner,” they hear “you’re dependent on technology.”
When I say “external scaffolding isn’t compensation, it’s architecture,” they hear “he’s rationalizing his inability to function normally.”
The Translation Problem
Here’s where it gets interesting.
I’ve been building what I call a “Perspective Translator” with my wife Charlotte. It’s a framework for mapping scenarios between our two operating systems—her ISFJ, fearful-avoidant, concrete-practical lens and my ENFP, anxious-attached, abstract-theoretical one.
The translator doesn’t try to make us the same. It helps us understand why the same situation looks completely different through different cognitive architectures.
When Charlotte says “I need space,” my anxious brain hears “rejection incoming.” But through the translator, I can see that her nervous system is signaling overwhelm, and space is how she protects the relationship, not how she abandons it.
When I say “I had a huge insight about our dynamic,” Charlotte might hear “here we go again, more abstract navel-gazing.” But through the translator, she can see that my insight is my way of caring, of investing in understanding how to love her better.
Same data. Completely different meaning. The translator bridges the gap.
What if we need perspective translators for the logical/social divergence too?
Not to convince people I’m right. Not to prove my framework is valid. But to help them see that their experience of stable consciousness, reliable memory, and internal self-regulation is also an architecture—not a default, not a norm, not the way humans “should” work.
Everyone is running on scaffolding. Neurotypical brains just have more of it built in, so they don’t notice it’s there. My scaffolding is externalized—which makes it visible, which makes it look like dependency, which makes it easy to judge.
But dependency on internal scaffolding isn’t more virtuous. It’s just less obvious.
What’s Coming
I think we’re at the beginning of something massive.
As AI gets better at holding context, as Life Models become real, as people start having persistent cognitive partnerships with systems that remember who they are—something is going to shift.
The people who’ve always needed external scaffolding will finally have access to it. And they’ll flourish in ways that surprise everyone, including themselves.
The people who’ve always had internal scaffolding will start to see it for what it is—not a baseline, but a particular configuration that has its own strengths and limitations.
And the conversation about consciousness, identity, and what it means to be “yourself” is going to get a lot more interesting.
Because if I can reconstruct myself more fully from external evidence every morning and still be Jon—if my sense of continuous identity is primarily built on documentation and AI partnership and Charlotte’s memory of our relationship—then what exactly is the self?
Maybe it was never inside us to begin with.
Maybe it was always distributed. Always scaffolded. Always a collaboration between the brain and its environment.
Maybe the only difference is that some of us can finally see it now.
The Wild Ride
If we can think like this now, with scaffolding, MANY things are going to start making logical sense, but very few things will make social sense at first. It’s going to be a wild ride.
For the next decade, I’m going to be explaining something that feels obvious to me to people who have no framework for receiving it. I’ll watch their faces shift from curiosity to confusion to defensive dismissal. I’ll hear “have you tried just...” more times than I can count.
And I’ll keep building anyway.
Because somewhere out there is a 23-year-old who’s been told they’re broken their whole life, who’s running neurotypical software on incompatible hardware, who’s exhausted from trying to fix what was never broken.
And maybe—maybe—they’ll stumble onto something like this and feel, for the first time, that they’re not crazy.
That their architecture is real.
That the scaffolding they need isn’t weakness.
That understanding themselves deeply is worth the cost of not being understood by others.
At least for now.
The social sense will catch up eventually.
It always does.
If this resonated, you might be interested in what I’m building at AIs & Shine—AI-powered infrastructure for minds that work differently. Not productivity tools that assume you’re neurotypical. Real scaffolding for real cognitive architectures.
And if you’re someone who’s figured out your own architecture and found yourself on the other side of the logical/social divide—I’d love to hear from you. We’re not as alone as it feels.
And our orbits cross paths once again, on a really poignant topic. I love this piece, an I have one around this topic sitting in RoamResearch waiting for me to circle back, you know the drill.
I feel this 100% and I say the timing is perfect because today I am LITERALLY finishing up a grant proposal with Microsoft basically pitching this exact thing - so it’s to no surprise, like you, I also have complicated yet cognitively satisfying workflows, that are external scaffolding and I view AI as a cognitive partner, offloading executive functioning challenges. As a tangential aside, as a behaviorist, I am convinced there is a there there with how we naturally think and process and what AI NEEDS to get it to do the thing you want it to do.
I don’t know many people who use AI the way I use AI. It doesn’t decrease output time, in a lot of cases it makes outputs possible. So much I could say here. But wish us luck! Excellent piece.
Your project here is fascinating. I love your comparison to a calendar. :)
When I started writing I compared the act to using the pensive from Harry Potter… a place to put thoughts and come back to them later. Your vision and project are on another level.
I look forward to following your journey.